Joakaha

Hi all, time for some rage!!!

Now it's done, they have changed all my beloved groups and made it ALOT harder to take care of!!!

I am the only admin for so many groups I created abuot 10 + years ago, and took good care of them myself. Have alot of members in all of them too. I was one of the first people that created groups when it first came to DA. Beacuse I love to watch good quality art.

It was easy/simple to use, and not over complicated at all as it is now.

to do with the old look the groups had, but now they look like Fu**ing s*it!!!

Just what Eclipse has been for a while, but come on!!!

DON'T CHANGE STUFF THAT ALREADY WORKS DA!!!

So I am not sure if I can keep up with my groups very well now anymore. I had my ways on how I took care of them. I am already trying some stuff, and it keeps pissing me off...

I really don't fu**ing get DA stupid so call ''updates''...

So I don't know what I can do really... *SIGH*

All my hard work for nothing.

All my rules, all the nice and clean work I did in the groups. Just gone...

Thanks DA!!! What's next... *SIGH*

Hi all!

Feels like alot of artists leave because of AI ''ART'' Most of my fav artists and friends on deviantART start to leave more and more... Is it just me or am I going crazy...

I understand why but what can you really do against it. I really HATE AI ''ART'' too, but that does not mean you should stop draw or leave if you LOVE to draw!? I just don't know anymore... *SIGH*

Not only do I got hit with it, and spam bots constently on my ass which is pissing me off alot.

I want to see the REAL people, the REAL ARTISTS!!! That's the reason why I joined social sites to comunicate and draw with people. To find people with the same interests...

I have always LOVE browsing around for amazing art all over. Because I am a fan of skillfull artists ART and creativity. That's what brings me joy and insperation when I draw. But I don't feel that much at all lately, as well as my online ''FRIENDS'' just stop be friends after learning to know them for years. I really don't understand WTF is going on!?

It makes me feel even more sad/depressed. Feels like I have no one anymore. I really don't like that feeling...

deviantART is the plase where I build my own fanbase of. Where did the kindness of the people go, why has the world turn so cold and EVIL...

Just to find a ''NORMAL'' person to talk with is a pain. Every damn time wherever I go. When I talk about stuff I am interested in no one seems to CARE...

Feels like I am always stuck on what I should draw too. I want to draw but I don't know what to draw or when. When I do polls sometimes to ask people what I should draw even then I am not sure if I want to draw that. Why is it like THIS!!! I really don't like how my life is, I feel desperate to find a real FRIEND/PARTNER that can help me in my miserable life. I want to feel LOVED...

Like it used to be back in the good old days...

What do you think about this?

Thank you for reading, have a nice day or a good night!

Hi All!

I am back 7 days from Germany, and WOW it was something... Where do I start... Hehe...

First we went to: --> 1: (Rüdesheim) --> 2: (Rhen - Enkirch Mosel) 3: (Lübeck)

We was here first 2 nights, it was awesome --> (über den reben schweben)

We took the bus form my home town to (Rüdesheim) IT TOOK US 15 HOURS!!! to get to our hotel. Because for some reason the Germans like to shut down whole highways for no reason AT ALL! No road works just randoms stops here and there. It happened not 1 not 2 but 3 TIMES!!! We where stuck for 8 hours...

No wonder why they are so angry/grumpy/tired all the time. If that is what they going true all the time.

The second hotel was in the middle of nowhere, and it was very shity and no one spoke english. We where there 2 nights. The owners with mom/dad and daughter was very rude and angry at us. Because we where late for some reason. Even if it was not our fault. I guess they don't want guests in thire family ''HOTEL''... I don't know and I don't care. They were nice to me at least. Maybe they don't like older people, or was just annoyed no one spoke German I guess...

But atleast we was sleeping at a 5 star hotel the last night. ''THANK GOD FOR THAT''...

I felt lonely all the time on the trip, our group was fild with very old people. All they ever did was drink, drink, drink. So I felt like an outsider. But of course I spoke with some and some was amazed when I showed my art to them, it was fun. They where nice.

I had my mom with me so it was ok. Hehe...

Another thing that was fun, no one in our group could speak English.

So I had to help and translate sometimes, it felt akward and weird.

But I took it like a man and try to help the best I can.

I like to explore and try to speak with the lokals even if they did not speak english at all. But some did when we got tour guides I spoke with them all the time so I did not feel lonely there...

So we was stuck on the highway for 8 hours so we came to our hotal 2 PM. Atleast the owner was very kind to us and made some sandwiches for us. The hotel was ''AMAZING'' reminds me of old Disney Snow White/Pinnocchio movies.

On our way home as well, but that time we where stuck 4 hours, so we missed our bot back home. ''OH GREAT''...

The first hotel we sleept in was very cool and cozy. We slept there 2 nights. The tour gaids was very kind, so I tried to speak with him as much I could. So I did not feel lonely in the group. Because we where around the same age...

I could hardly sleep because my mom sounded like this every single night --> https://youtube.com/shorts/rXz6tx3dcpw?si=MuPN2z2Vk0JiAL2D lol... Sometimes even louder and different tones. So yeah, I sure was annoyed as you can tell...

I also woke up one night when I heard someone whispered loud in my ear, and asked for my help in a sad voice. To bad I could not speak German... That was a jump scare creapy... That happened at the bad old hotel...

I had some fun moments happened here and there all the time too. Hard to explain with words. Some people came up to me and spoke German, but I guess I look German...

The good stuff about all this I really loved German juice/food/snacks

I bought some awesome souvenirs I am very proud of. So it was a nice experiance minus the whole bus thinge... Hehe...

I am sure I forgot some things... ^,^

Thank you for reading, have a nice day or a good night!

Hi All!

I going to Germany for a week with my mom.

I am a bit nervous because I have not been to another country since China 2006. So much have change in that time... But I gonna try to stay positive...

To see and explore stuff and hopefully have fun. Because my loneliness/depression. Is still a big problem for me. I just want to feel happy again. But it is to much to ask for. ''Oh well''

I have lived alone for over a year now in my new apartment. Still haven't find some kind of friend or someone with the same interest like me. Wherever I go it always feels like I never belong. But it could be worse I guess so... I am just so fucking tired to be alone...

Thank you for reading, have a nice day or a good night!

Hi all!

What do you think of AI ''ART'' in general?

You just start to see it everywhere now, it start to look very annoying and sad.

I just wish people would draw for the heart and soul.

Not just with a push of a button from other artists works... Hmm...

Have a nice day, or a good night!